exhausted
The move is finally done! I'm down to 1.5 boxes. Just need to pick up one more shelf unit from crate and barrel.So far I really like the new place...overall it is more spacious than my old place. I have a living room to walk out into and relax in. Friends can come over and have a place to hang out in without feeling like they're being intrusive on my personal space. Investing in furniture feels so very grown-up. Good thing I don't need much.
Everything comes in spades...Started a new job, now in a new apartment. I wonder what the third will be?
I think I'm pretty set on the relationship/love side of things. This is definitely a first in relationships where I've felt really happy.
It is scary ... When you hit that point in a relationship where you can feel confident to let your guard down (from however many years you've built it up, depending on the past you've had) and see the reaction it would get - that's the scary moment.
I was and still am scared to come out and show that yes, I'm not that strong of a person. I'd like to think that I am strong to the world, in my job, as a friend, and all other aspects. Similar to coming home and breathing out, I want to be able to let my guard down and be that neurotic, unassured person. I don't think anyone can be assured and know what they want every moment. It's karma, to have to balance your life with insecurity and uncertainty. I want to be able to be strong as a partner in a relationship, but have that sense of security to know that person is strong enough to be my support too. I think I'm getting that...and I think he gets it too.
The other thing is...he makes me laugh.
::Update::
I just found out more awesome news (this is getting kinda scary). My team nominated me for a Living FAST award - in Reuters, it's a way of recognizing someone for their work, achievements, etc. Woo-hoo!!!
I blushed at the meeting when they told me about it. I work with such amazing people. It's so great to work in an environment where your work is recognized and awarded.
posted by ilennovy @ 6:22 PM
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